i wish..

all my nights were like last nite! haha

i had sooo much fun. we went to roundup... me, tim, khorey, aj, michelle, michelles new bf, minday, davin, britini and alisa. it was fun. then we went downtown. dicey rileys and capones and drank for the free. and then of course ended the night at dennys. and then i came home to throw it all up.

i woke up this morning... feeling like crap. but i picked myself up and went ot sherryls baby shower.  which was hysterical. we were laughing the whole time, everyone else at the party probably thought we were really drunk...but we def crack ourselves up.  and then went to brandons grad bash lol. it was fun. good food and friends.  i seriously can't ask for me. when my friends are in town... i am just a much happier person.  for real.  

alright im out.

i think im going to start posting on tumblr.com   it looks like a cool spot to be on. 

secret santa =)

today was a long day.

i woke up early and talked to alina. it wasnt bad, i also spoke to her later in the day and she made me feel better.

i went to the doctors, and it didnt go so well. so we shall see. i cancelled my eye doctors to go to the regular doctors. so i get to go back on friday to the eye doctors.

So my secret santa was JD. haha. the one person in the group im not really that good of friends with, but he got me dreamgirls. i already have it, but its the thought that counts.

i got khorey and he loved the movie haha.

alright im off.

passing the torch..

So in leadership, it was our turn to receive the torch. we are now torch bearers. and we are the shit..lol

i also got to see jazmine sullivan at cafe iguana last nite. it was pretty much amazing. it was just khorey and i. we seem to be the only ones up for that kind of stuff. we got to be right at the front of the stage. Fat Joe was there too...and one of the best parts..i looked up and saw one of my homegirls i use to work at smokey bones with..bianca! it was her birthday. i always like to see people i knew in tally. its nice

and if you don't know who jazmine is...i am going to need you to catch up, she is nominated for 5 grammys this year. holllllller 

i talked to my mom today, about a few of my problems. i think maybe she might get where i am coming from now. hopefully. im still bleh about a ton of things.

i had my phone call with alina this morning, and she hung up on me. oh no. how disrespectful is that bullshit. i would never hang up on someone, she said i was messing up her space. omg. out of control.  

anyways...neeeext =) hopefully tomorrow is a better day!

so

i'm sad. i have been sad. and i don't know what to do so that i can feel okay again.

i told my mom i wanted to talk to someone, but i don't think she believed me that i was not happy.  

it takes something major for me to want to get out of bed in the morning. i don't want to leave the house. 

i miss tallahassee. i miss my friends.  im pretty sure there are a ton of things wrong with me, but i don't have health insurance. nor vision or dental insurance.  

my job hasnt started yet. 

and i hate waking up and having to talk to alina in the morning. and i just tell her what she wants to hear. i can't wait for those 10 minutes to be over.   and i honestly think my life was just fine, before summit. now, not so much.  

oh well.

my eyes

i had an eye doctors appt today...
still can't wear the contacts. but she said with the sample pair i have, because of the holidays i can wear them for a little bit.

im slightly frustrating being stuck wearing my glasses everyday.

i got to go to dinner last nite, with khorey, nicole, brit, jaamal, and tim. i love my friends. haha. seriously.

tomorrow is my housewarming party. i have NO IDEA where anyone is going to park. but i know it will be fun. because frankly, when do we never not have fun when we are together.

i wrote a letter to alina, talkin about my feelings on enrollment, and she wrote back i made it up. i get some of it it could have been just made up. oh well.

but i had a conversation with mike this morning, and he made me feel better. i think that was my breakthough, i actually like this guy now haha. who would have thought it. but i did, we had a meaningful conversation and we both were listening to what the other was saying.

maybe i will talk about that with alina tomorrow.

im sad about my eyes though. i think i prob really did mess them up. please believe, im sure my eyes are the least of my problems.

skeet skeet mothafucka

my 2nd weekend was okay in the leadership program. i def think i like mike waaaay more now. i feel like THAT was my breakthrough. 

i missed kim graduating. but ari saw it!! 

the jingle ball looked like fun. 

i won a scholarship for alison to go to the seminars! woop woop. i won by default..THANK GOD! i was told in order to even be ELIGIBLE for the scholarship she had to have the 250 down. and the other two people had put down a deposit already. the world works in mysterious ways, and i'm not even going to lie. the second i knew that i had a chance at it, i just KNEW i was going to get it. haha.  because, from the last post..i AM WINNER. and when i WANT something bad enough, i usually get it. 

i went bowling last nite for joes birthday. it was just me, staci, jaime and joe. it was fun. 

khorey comes home today!! the rest of the month i KNOW is finally goin to be off the chain and fun.  there is just something so special that happens when we all get together! *skeet skeet*  its everyone minus andrea =( but its okay she is here in spirit haha.  and now...here are some pictures of my second family =)  aka the loves of my life. and PLEASE BELIEVE...my friends are WAY better than yours hahahaha

yeah, we like to bowl

group shot

am i a winner?

opposed to a loser? i would believe im a winner in most areas of my life.

when i really really want something, i guess i figure out a way to get it.

my team won a scavenger hunt, and our team won a scholarship to give to someone for basic and advance.  i THOUGHT as a team we were going to decide a way to pick someone, but i get a call in the morning and then a text from marlene talking about how i need to align to give it to her daughter. and everyone else on teh team except one or two of us havent yet. skeeeeeer  i DONT EVEN THINK SO.  1. how sneaky to call everyone on the team for you 2. you didnt even give anyone else a chance to state a case.  3. over my dead body will i align with that.

when i said, i didnt align, she talked about her being a mother, and im like ..thats nice. alison gets to go, so no matter what, u will NOT get my vote. alison is one of the most amazing people i have met in a long time. we click with each other so easily. but she doesn't know her own strength and she gets to through this program. 

moving along...

im COMPLETELY ADDICTED TO LOST. i have basically watched the whole first season in two days. and the beginning of the second and i am in love with it. i can't believe how late i am with watching this great show haha. It seems to me, when it comes to TV tim happens to be always right. haha. how i met your mother and friday night lights are two shows he got me on to.

anyways im off to watch some more lost haha.

holler.

oh ps. i get to go to the eye doctor tomorrow and pick up my new prada glasses. and HOPEFULLy the eye doctor will prescribe me contacts! i have been wearing my crap glasses all week long to hopefully make my eyes better.  Plus tomorrow is the start of my 2nd weekend in leadership. hopefully the weekend turns out okay. 

and to answer my question...i am a winner...when i want to be.

i moved to miami with nicole =)

hahah i don't think i wrote this or not..but i moved to miami with nicole. i heart her. im still learning my away around the city.  we have a nice lil condo, on the 16th floor. its nice, furnished by my mother of course haha.  so this post is for her...some roomie love...here are the only pics i could find of us hahaha...we will have newer ones soon!

a while ago =)

in tally @the moon haha  ...also in the pic danielle and melanie

the foursome = love

i decided i need to update a little more..

i also am starting to watch LOST online, because it starts again in january, and i need to be up to speed. so i can watch it with everyone else.  Steven just told me that he stayed up for for 24 hours straight watching it, because he was addicted hahah. niiiice

tacky holiday sweater party...

so i mentioned in previous posts i went to a party...haha here are some of the pics =)

tim, alisa, aj, and me

nicole (my roomie), aj, tim, and i

good weekend =)

well the last few days have been interesting...

on thursday night, we celebrated brits birthday by going to chilis and then some of us went to howl at the moon. it was so much fun. and they are building one at hardrock, but i need to start going out down where i am. unfortunately everyone i know except my roomate, lives in broward.

friday night, we went to brits house and played mad gab. hahaha now THAT is a fun game haha. 

saturday night was amazing. i got to be apart of something really special.  there are no words to even describe how great it really was.

sunday, my leadership team had a scavenger hunt against another lp team and we won. *woop woop* so they have to cook us dinner.

so friday night, my mom went out and got a lil tipsy. frankly, i know she drinks, my friends have always known she drinks, but until recently its gotten slightly out of control.  now she is drinking, to just drink.  no reason, and by herself. and i blame bill (her bf) whom if u have met him, know...he is a little off. and by off i mean...druggie. i can't let go of my birthday incident in tally.  i don't think i have been that embarrassed about something in so long. i don't usually let things embarrass me.  

and of course our blowup.

and to top it, while my mom was out...he was callin staci asking "if she is dancing with black guys"    AS IF THAT IS THE MAIN PROBLEM!?!?!? LOL   i mean i know he is racist, but i don't see how my mom even puts up with that, cause i know she is not.

i think my main problem is that i hold my mom up so high, and i have always held her high, but right now she is falling apart and coming across very weak to me. and i don't get it.  and these seminars we are going through are teaching you to be a better you. and i don't see progression. 

it's just a little upsetting.

so before, i was trying to be friendly with him, for her and myself.  if i do the same things, then i will just get the same results.   so i am going to have an open and honest conversation with her, about the drinking. not bill, because that topic throws me off the deep end. and whenever ANYONE says anything to her, she just walks away. she avoids.

oooh AND

i went to the eye doctors, and he would not prescribe me contacts because he said my eyes were unhealthy and now i have to wear glasses all week.  but i did get a new pair of glasses. they are nice. they have lil orange stones on the side.

now i just have to get to a regular dr. for a checkup.

i think thats its for now. =) 

i have decided that i love taylor swift....

Say your sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to.
As I pace back and forth
All this time cause
I honestly believed in you.
Holdin' on
The days drag on
Stupid girl I should have known, I should have known.

That I'm not a princess.
This ain't a fairytale.
I'm not the one you sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell.
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now it's to late for you and your white horse to come around.

Maybe I was naÎve, got lost in your eyes,
and never really had a chance.
my mistake, I didn't know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings, well now I know...

That I'm not a princess.
This ain't a fairytale.
I'm not the one you sweep off her feet,
lead her up the stairwell.
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your white horse to come around.

And there you are on your knees.
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me.
Just like I always wanted but, I'm so sorry.

Cause I'm not your princess.
This ain't a fairytale.
I'm gonna find someone some day, who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world.
That was a small town, there in my rearview mirror disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your white horse...
Its too late for you and your white horse to
catch me now.

Oh, Oh,Oh,
Try and catch me now ohh
Its too late
To catch me now

to those who do read this...

khorey baker is seriously one of my best friends if not the best haha.

he is am amazing, confident, genuine, passionate man.

this is my shout out to him.

thanks boo for being there for me always.

and if u guys don't know him, hahaha tooooo bad he's miiiine! haha juust joking.

love,
his steady number 2

tuesday

SOOO

im in love with my new apartment, only there is no cable or internet in the house haha. so i'm doing a lot of reading. i came to my moms to update and hang out. my sister came into town. she wont be able to do advance this time around, she couldnt get off of work!
my mom is putting up the xmas tree. it's sooo nice!
its always my favorite time of year. its the only holiday my mother ever decorated for.

i went to a guest event last nite. i really did have fun.except margo. my experience of her is that she is a little too high strung for me. like she has drank about 12 cups of cuban coffee. who knows. hahaha but still i can learn from her. but i def know, im THANKFUL FOR ALINA because if i had margo...i'm pretty sure i would have quit haha

dude. wardell joined the army. wtf. nothing against it..but i never thought it was something he would do. he said because he couldnt find the job, it was the obvious solution. right..until he is sent somewhere he doesn't want to be. but he said...anything can be better than jail. so coming from that perspective i could see how the army could be heaven.

im watching the world music awards on tv...ALICIA KEYS PERFORMED!!! YOU ALREADY KNOW IT WAS AMAZING!!!!! she sang "superwoman" and "no one" aaaah it was beautiful. i definately have a girl crush on her haha. she's is amazing. okay moving along...haha
OH YAY MY SECOND FAVORITE PERSON JUST CAME ON...MARIAH CAREY..haha SHE CAN DO NO WRONG in my eyes!

its britney spears birthday today. and her cd came out today too! "hit me baby one more time" came out 10 years ago. wow. time flies. i saw her at the broward county fair when she opened for nsync haha and she was booed hardcore lol.

so holler for a dollar lol

okay...im goin to come from my vision

so i realize that im fairly quick tempered lol. yesterday i wrote that post while i was on the phone, but now stepping back i realize, eh it wasnt that big of a deal. i really do like alina. we had our phone call this morning and she said, if i keep doing the same thing, then i will get the same results. well i thought about it, and then mike called me this morning. and i answered. and just two days ago i swore i would not give this man a chance. lol. but i did, because i have to do something different to get a different result right.

we had a decent conversation he apologized. and said that he wasnt getting enough sleep yada yada yada. i can't stay mad at anyone for more than a day or two anyways lol. haha

well its monday. and i have a guest event tonite! we declared 30 people. lets see who is coming. i asked my friends and everyone just has plans already. its okay. im sure there will be another guest event soon.

holler.

really..

i am so fuckin pissed with this lp bullshit. mike is a fukin little kid. i think we should try to figure out how to kick him off the team. wtf. i dont get why everyone else thinks its okay to keep giving him chance after chance. oh no baby, you have got life twisted if u think im goin to keep callin his fuckass after all his fuckery lol.
again he didnt make the call. my interpretation is that its on purpose. again ..just another choice he decided to make.

and then alina got slick on the phonecall. callin me out because i am not committed..hell no im not committed..my intention is probably for him to not answer the call because i dont want to talk to him. im over it. i am trying to step to the left. but it isnt working out. my payoff is that im right. lol.
she actually said that because i can't get people to enroll...that whatever is stopping me, is stopping me from achieving my dreams in my life. ....ok....

ANYWAYS
i had the most amazing weekend. aj was home. and i even got to see michelle!!
wed we went to roundup and then downtown to americas backyard. it was PACKED!!
friday night, was brits tacky holiday sweater =) and it was fun! and everyone looked so cute.
well not cute, haha..but def it was good that everyone did the theme.

and of course fsu lost to uf. that kinda stinks. lol. but still i love them anyways!! =)
i bleed garnet and gold forever!!

xoxo

happy thanksgiving!!

alright, so tim just made my morning by asking me to go to his website and see the "slapsgiving" video. how i met your mother is sooo funny. it brightened up my day!

i have got to run, but i will continue this later!

im tired

yesterday i was vulnerable with my mom for the first time in a long time. i let her in on a few things in my life. stuff i worry about. i told her things i havent told anyone else. and it was nice to know that she was there for me. and Tammy, she really is an amazing woman. I'm so happy i met her and she was in my basic.

So in this leadership thing i am in we had this ropes weekend. i think my group kinda got jipped. it seems the other groups got to do more outside activities. and someone was taking pictures of them. no one really took pics of us.

tomorrow morning i move into my new apt with nicole =) and im super excited about it. im ready to get out of hollywood, and down to miami.

i had an interview and they told me i had a job and they would call me monday or tuesday but i havent got a call yet. hopefully they call tomorrow. or i will call them.

i made an eye appoitment for saturday. my eyes are getting pretty bad.
i need to go to the doctors. i know there is something not right with my body. i'm slightly scared to go. so when i work up the nerve, i shall do it.

i happened to catch the reunion of "the real housewives of atlanta" haha i find this series seriously entertaining. these ladies are off the chain.

xoxo

veeent

OKAY, sooo a lil quick update.

i did a ropes course today and a ton of team building activities, it was fun.

in summit, we have these things called feedback. and its just where you give feedback to a person. HA
WELL MIKE, at 5:15 this morning, decides to come up to me...(he didnt ask if i was even OPEN for feedback..and just starts to talk) he tells me that i play victim, and think small. that he hates me and that i am self righteous, and that when he sees me he wants nothing more than to crush me. so i smiled and said "thats fine" and walked away. he didn't take that action particularly well.

i'm just sick of a 40 year old man that acts like a fuckin baby. i get that he OBVIOUSLY has issues but when is enough enough?? SO NOW i am giving him yet ANOTHER CHANCE and going to breakfast with him in the morning. the mere thought of it makes me want to throw up in my mouth. people keep telling me that he represents someone in my life and when i can figure him out, i will be able to figure out how to deal with certain people.
1. im angry about it because i don't let people say whatever the fuck they want and get away with it.
2. i dont even HANG OUT with people that would even feel that way. DUH WHY WOULD THEY BE MY FRIEND THEN??
3. and if HE is the person that everyone has a problem wiht on the team, then its obviously HIS FUCKIN SHIT that keeps coming up. not mine.
4. so now its a stretch that i go to eat with him. i dont want to. i almost felt pressured into doing it, because to everyone else it was "the right thing to do" i say "i dont care" and someone says "thats bullshit" ...so someone explain to me the difference from when i say "i do care" and "i don't care" i REALLY DO NOT CARE TO BE FRIEND WITH THIS MAN.
5. he says i represent someone in his life, another female. obviously someone he can't get along with. and the only thought i have is GOOD ...YES i AM TOO GOOD FOR YOUR ASS. now is that mean...a little. but at the end of the day. we are all a little bitchy and you can't like everyone.
6. again i feel a little pressured with this mike thing...i dont even want to hang out with him alone, i seriously think he could be bi polar. and if the words " i want to connect" come out of his mouth one more time..i'm pretty sure i could slit my wrist.

now that i am done venting. this will be the last time i post about mike, unless i really feel the need to write it down, because this man has taken up TOO MUCH of my VALUABLE time in my life.



on the other hand, my sister is in summit and she sent my mom a text message that said that she is so happy she did this and she appreciates it. it really is an eye opening experience.

i'm a little sad that i don't think i have gotten much out of lp yet. i don't feel any different, i still dislike people. i think i haven't gotten down the art of shifting yet. whatever. it will happen i am sure. i def do notice taht i think a little differently now. i try to examine all possiblities. and not think of things that can limit me. which is now why...i am employed and nicole and i are moving to downtown miami and living in a condo on the 16th floor with the most amazing view ever.
i am excited about that.

love.
t

morning of mirracles

soo yesterday was a pretty blessed day.
1. found a job
2. found a place to live
3. my sister came to town and had her first night of the seminar (basic)
4.i talked to ashley about a college reunion. (and im totally psyched about that)


i had another talk with alina, and again...im goin to call mike today. IF ITS TO BE...ITS UP TO ME!
lol

i miss my friends down here, this leadership thing has taken up so much of my time. i feel like i haven't been able to chill nearly as much as i wanted to.

AND this weekend is the classic, and of course some of my friends are going, i have always wanted to do that. everyone always says its a good time!

...

so again, i tried to contact mike today. i called him, and left a message. no answer or call back. i CALLED AGAIN and no answer.  i swear, i'm not sure how much longer i am goin to put up with this guys crap.  i think he does it on purpose for the attention. and clearly that is something i could just be making up, but wtf is really good with this man.  this is my vent for the day.  

i will try again tomorrow.  

i talked to melanie today for a little bit. i def miss her. haha. she's my "yes" person.  she was having lunch with the "lunch crew" ..which is steph and justin. miss them like woah.  po boys. yum

i need to find a bagel bagel around down here! haha

i'm going blind, so i get to see the eye doctor thursday morning. hopefully that goes okay.

my sister comes tomorrow =) i am pumped about that! she is here til thanksgiving.  and i know that thanksgiving this year, has GOT to be better than last haha.

and to end this...TRL had a finale and i happened to catch the backstreet boys singing their song " i want it that way"   and i'm goin to go ahead and say, that it was absolutely amazing.  haha. it brought me waaaay back.  aj was STILL hot, but now i think the others in the group are good looking as well.  and on that note..

xoxo

wow.

so i was reading tims blog -pop culture for the cultured- and i learned that papa johns has a facebook profile that give you a free medium pizza with an online order if you are friends with them. AND now you can order a pizza from your tivo! that blows my mind lol.

well my job interview was rescheduled to wed.

last night i went to dinner at a place i have never been before...le tub? it was probably the best burger i have ever had. and the setup of the place was sooooo cool. it was really a different, i odn't think i have been to place like that before. i think i will suggest it to others next time there is a discussion of "where to eat?" lol.

Yesterday, i had made plans with mike but cancelled. my buddy from leadership wanted to quit, and i dont even think we have gotten started yet. i am not a quitter. and if this whole thing is a game...IM IN IT TO WIN IT =)

i am goin to call mike and to get up with him today.
i need to go to wachovia or call them and figure out my account situation lol.

there are a ton of things i think i need to do.
i should be giving 100%, 100% of the time. we shall see!!



i

just another manic monday..wooooah

hey hey!
so its like 8am and im wide awake from having my talk with alina this morning.

i have a jooob interview today, and i'm not even nervous, i just have to figure out what i'm going to wear.

i wanted to say that this past weekend was eye opening for me. i went to a shop to earn seminar and it was pretty much amazing. it had me laughing and crying. and afterwards, i think i really do want to go green. omg, there are so many products out there that i just never ever knew of. and i will NEVER look at water the same way lol. there were soo many business people there, like its definately growing. they gave away thousands of dollars, and a car. i didn't win any, that would have been nice though lol. when they went to give away the car, they had to call 3 NAMES because the people werent there. you had to be present. lol. out of control.

i had a great conversation with bronze last nite. i really do miss him. haha. my sunday nights will never be the same.

and saturday night, i went out with ashley and megan!! megan moved down here and i havent seen her in almost 2 years. AND we had so much fun downtown. except fsu lost their game!!! HOMECOMING! WE LOST HOMECOMING! and that is out of control. lol.

well i have a big week ahead of me. my sister is coming into town and we are actually going to get to spend thanksgiving together. she is doing the seminars that my mom and i did, and whitneys best friend elizabeth did it to. so now she gets to go! =)

sooo

I GOT A CALL BACK FOR ANOTHER INTERVIEW ON MONDAY!!! was there any doubt?? HELL NO! LOL   i got this AND what! haha

and this weekend, i get to go to a shop to earn seminar this weekend.  i plan on getting two people to sign up and if i do. on the 21st i will be getting a 600 dollar check and NOTHING wrong with a little extra money.  

I intend on enrolling two people! it will happen.  =)   

im sitting next to my mom outside, having a white russian. yum. what an old school drink haha.  

alright im off just wanted to update.

OH ash said that megan moved down here and we are suppose to go out saturday night. im excited about it. hopefully i can get out of the shop to earn seminar early! 

i stand for love and connection..

yesterday was a pretty long day for me. i am so broke, that i am desperately looking for a job. at this point i just need cash flow..(i need it in my life, im talking bank roll..my money my money) lol  

i got to do prep calls last nite, and out of my pile of people to call, only one person answered.  I got to have an amazing conversation with him about his dreams and vision for his life.  I learned that when i was open with him, he became open with me.  

i am committed in my life for everyone i know to see their vision. I get that if i want to have a world that is full of acceptance and unconditional love, than my love can't be conditional.   

i want to keep updating about my journey in LP cause i think it would be nice to look back and see where i was and who i will be.  i'm going to stop being a "human being" and become a "human doer" hahah aida said that to me yesterday, and i liked it.

i went for a 30 minute walk this morning, which was what i declared on my plan to do.  I am suppose to hear back from the lady today about the job interview that i had went to on monday.  I really do want this job. 

i also plan on calling another one of my team members, mike, today and try to have a clearing with him.  we had gotten into an arguement, and i choose from my small side to not even bother to forgive him or give him another chance. i know that in order for me to change, the way i go about things needs to change. so i am going to call him today and clear that up.  

If you see me write the name Alina, she is my coach.  I talk to her daily so her name is probably going to show up on here once or twice.   Alina dedicated a song to us this morning..

"where is the love?" by black eyed peas

i like that song, i like the lyrics!

here they are.

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

hola =)

Hey Hey!

SO this is my first blog on the blog.spot website. i used to keep one on livejournal but i definitely have not wrote on that thing in like a year haha. I figure I should start keeping a journal and update because i have had some major life changing decisions coming up in my life.

To start- i moved from tally and i miss it like crazy. I decided to move to Miami with Nicole and i'm excited about that. I think a little change and the unexpected is needed. I never had the desire to be in Miami, but why not? So i am going to give it a try.

I started doing these seminars called summit education, and they have had such a positive effect on my life. It is a real eye opening experience. I'm in the leadership part right now, and my group is up to some big things. I'm excited for it.

So writing a blog seems to be "the thing to do" right now haha. my friend tim has a good one..its called Pop Culture for the Cultured - you should def check it out, you won't be let down!! popcultureforthecultured.blogspot and i saw that my friend jason had one today that he started and then staci has one. and i said HEY i think i will give blogging another go around.
My blog isn't going to be about anything in particular. just thoughts.

I'm watching the Country Music Awards as i write..and i just want to throw out there that i love taylor swift. haha. i hear nothing but good things about her new album.

Has anyone seen Desperate Housewives of Atlanta....and Kim says..."its as easy as spelling cat..K-A-T" i'm thinking she is wishing that didn't air on national tv. hahahahah it cracked me up. i laughed so hard, because she was serious AND NO ONE CORRECTED HER hahahaha

well i'm off!