so

i'm sad. i have been sad. and i don't know what to do so that i can feel okay again.

i told my mom i wanted to talk to someone, but i don't think she believed me that i was not happy.  

it takes something major for me to want to get out of bed in the morning. i don't want to leave the house. 

i miss tallahassee. i miss my friends.  im pretty sure there are a ton of things wrong with me, but i don't have health insurance. nor vision or dental insurance.  

my job hasnt started yet. 

and i hate waking up and having to talk to alina in the morning. and i just tell her what she wants to hear. i can't wait for those 10 minutes to be over.   and i honestly think my life was just fine, before summit. now, not so much.  

oh well.