veeent

OKAY, sooo a lil quick update.

i did a ropes course today and a ton of team building activities, it was fun.

in summit, we have these things called feedback. and its just where you give feedback to a person. HA
WELL MIKE, at 5:15 this morning, decides to come up to me...(he didnt ask if i was even OPEN for feedback..and just starts to talk) he tells me that i play victim, and think small. that he hates me and that i am self righteous, and that when he sees me he wants nothing more than to crush me. so i smiled and said "thats fine" and walked away. he didn't take that action particularly well.

i'm just sick of a 40 year old man that acts like a fuckin baby. i get that he OBVIOUSLY has issues but when is enough enough?? SO NOW i am giving him yet ANOTHER CHANCE and going to breakfast with him in the morning. the mere thought of it makes me want to throw up in my mouth. people keep telling me that he represents someone in my life and when i can figure him out, i will be able to figure out how to deal with certain people.
1. im angry about it because i don't let people say whatever the fuck they want and get away with it.
2. i dont even HANG OUT with people that would even feel that way. DUH WHY WOULD THEY BE MY FRIEND THEN??
3. and if HE is the person that everyone has a problem wiht on the team, then its obviously HIS FUCKIN SHIT that keeps coming up. not mine.
4. so now its a stretch that i go to eat with him. i dont want to. i almost felt pressured into doing it, because to everyone else it was "the right thing to do" i say "i dont care" and someone says "thats bullshit" ...so someone explain to me the difference from when i say "i do care" and "i don't care" i REALLY DO NOT CARE TO BE FRIEND WITH THIS MAN.
5. he says i represent someone in his life, another female. obviously someone he can't get along with. and the only thought i have is GOOD ...YES i AM TOO GOOD FOR YOUR ASS. now is that mean...a little. but at the end of the day. we are all a little bitchy and you can't like everyone.
6. again i feel a little pressured with this mike thing...i dont even want to hang out with him alone, i seriously think he could be bi polar. and if the words " i want to connect" come out of his mouth one more time..i'm pretty sure i could slit my wrist.

now that i am done venting. this will be the last time i post about mike, unless i really feel the need to write it down, because this man has taken up TOO MUCH of my VALUABLE time in my life.



on the other hand, my sister is in summit and she sent my mom a text message that said that she is so happy she did this and she appreciates it. it really is an eye opening experience.

i'm a little sad that i don't think i have gotten much out of lp yet. i don't feel any different, i still dislike people. i think i haven't gotten down the art of shifting yet. whatever. it will happen i am sure. i def do notice taht i think a little differently now. i try to examine all possiblities. and not think of things that can limit me. which is now why...i am employed and nicole and i are moving to downtown miami and living in a condo on the 16th floor with the most amazing view ever.
i am excited about that.

love.
t