really..

i am so fuckin pissed with this lp bullshit. mike is a fukin little kid. i think we should try to figure out how to kick him off the team. wtf. i dont get why everyone else thinks its okay to keep giving him chance after chance. oh no baby, you have got life twisted if u think im goin to keep callin his fuckass after all his fuckery lol.
again he didnt make the call. my interpretation is that its on purpose. again ..just another choice he decided to make.

and then alina got slick on the phonecall. callin me out because i am not committed..hell no im not committed..my intention is probably for him to not answer the call because i dont want to talk to him. im over it. i am trying to step to the left. but it isnt working out. my payoff is that im right. lol.
she actually said that because i can't get people to enroll...that whatever is stopping me, is stopping me from achieving my dreams in my life. ....ok....

ANYWAYS
i had the most amazing weekend. aj was home. and i even got to see michelle!!
wed we went to roundup and then downtown to americas backyard. it was PACKED!!
friday night, was brits tacky holiday sweater =) and it was fun! and everyone looked so cute.
well not cute, haha..but def it was good that everyone did the theme.

and of course fsu lost to uf. that kinda stinks. lol. but still i love them anyways!! =)
i bleed garnet and gold forever!!

xoxo

happy thanksgiving!!

alright, so tim just made my morning by asking me to go to his website and see the "slapsgiving" video. how i met your mother is sooo funny. it brightened up my day!

i have got to run, but i will continue this later!

im tired

yesterday i was vulnerable with my mom for the first time in a long time. i let her in on a few things in my life. stuff i worry about. i told her things i havent told anyone else. and it was nice to know that she was there for me. and Tammy, she really is an amazing woman. I'm so happy i met her and she was in my basic.

So in this leadership thing i am in we had this ropes weekend. i think my group kinda got jipped. it seems the other groups got to do more outside activities. and someone was taking pictures of them. no one really took pics of us.

tomorrow morning i move into my new apt with nicole =) and im super excited about it. im ready to get out of hollywood, and down to miami.

i had an interview and they told me i had a job and they would call me monday or tuesday but i havent got a call yet. hopefully they call tomorrow. or i will call them.

i made an eye appoitment for saturday. my eyes are getting pretty bad.
i need to go to the doctors. i know there is something not right with my body. i'm slightly scared to go. so when i work up the nerve, i shall do it.

i happened to catch the reunion of "the real housewives of atlanta" haha i find this series seriously entertaining. these ladies are off the chain.

xoxo

veeent

OKAY, sooo a lil quick update.

i did a ropes course today and a ton of team building activities, it was fun.

in summit, we have these things called feedback. and its just where you give feedback to a person. HA
WELL MIKE, at 5:15 this morning, decides to come up to me...(he didnt ask if i was even OPEN for feedback..and just starts to talk) he tells me that i play victim, and think small. that he hates me and that i am self righteous, and that when he sees me he wants nothing more than to crush me. so i smiled and said "thats fine" and walked away. he didn't take that action particularly well.

i'm just sick of a 40 year old man that acts like a fuckin baby. i get that he OBVIOUSLY has issues but when is enough enough?? SO NOW i am giving him yet ANOTHER CHANCE and going to breakfast with him in the morning. the mere thought of it makes me want to throw up in my mouth. people keep telling me that he represents someone in my life and when i can figure him out, i will be able to figure out how to deal with certain people.
1. im angry about it because i don't let people say whatever the fuck they want and get away with it.
2. i dont even HANG OUT with people that would even feel that way. DUH WHY WOULD THEY BE MY FRIEND THEN??
3. and if HE is the person that everyone has a problem wiht on the team, then its obviously HIS FUCKIN SHIT that keeps coming up. not mine.
4. so now its a stretch that i go to eat with him. i dont want to. i almost felt pressured into doing it, because to everyone else it was "the right thing to do" i say "i dont care" and someone says "thats bullshit" ...so someone explain to me the difference from when i say "i do care" and "i don't care" i REALLY DO NOT CARE TO BE FRIEND WITH THIS MAN.
5. he says i represent someone in his life, another female. obviously someone he can't get along with. and the only thought i have is GOOD ...YES i AM TOO GOOD FOR YOUR ASS. now is that mean...a little. but at the end of the day. we are all a little bitchy and you can't like everyone.
6. again i feel a little pressured with this mike thing...i dont even want to hang out with him alone, i seriously think he could be bi polar. and if the words " i want to connect" come out of his mouth one more time..i'm pretty sure i could slit my wrist.

now that i am done venting. this will be the last time i post about mike, unless i really feel the need to write it down, because this man has taken up TOO MUCH of my VALUABLE time in my life.



on the other hand, my sister is in summit and she sent my mom a text message that said that she is so happy she did this and she appreciates it. it really is an eye opening experience.

i'm a little sad that i don't think i have gotten much out of lp yet. i don't feel any different, i still dislike people. i think i haven't gotten down the art of shifting yet. whatever. it will happen i am sure. i def do notice taht i think a little differently now. i try to examine all possiblities. and not think of things that can limit me. which is now why...i am employed and nicole and i are moving to downtown miami and living in a condo on the 16th floor with the most amazing view ever.
i am excited about that.

love.
t

morning of mirracles

soo yesterday was a pretty blessed day.
1. found a job
2. found a place to live
3. my sister came to town and had her first night of the seminar (basic)
4.i talked to ashley about a college reunion. (and im totally psyched about that)


i had another talk with alina, and again...im goin to call mike today. IF ITS TO BE...ITS UP TO ME!
lol

i miss my friends down here, this leadership thing has taken up so much of my time. i feel like i haven't been able to chill nearly as much as i wanted to.

AND this weekend is the classic, and of course some of my friends are going, i have always wanted to do that. everyone always says its a good time!

...

so again, i tried to contact mike today. i called him, and left a message. no answer or call back. i CALLED AGAIN and no answer.  i swear, i'm not sure how much longer i am goin to put up with this guys crap.  i think he does it on purpose for the attention. and clearly that is something i could just be making up, but wtf is really good with this man.  this is my vent for the day.  

i will try again tomorrow.  

i talked to melanie today for a little bit. i def miss her. haha. she's my "yes" person.  she was having lunch with the "lunch crew" ..which is steph and justin. miss them like woah.  po boys. yum

i need to find a bagel bagel around down here! haha

i'm going blind, so i get to see the eye doctor thursday morning. hopefully that goes okay.

my sister comes tomorrow =) i am pumped about that! she is here til thanksgiving.  and i know that thanksgiving this year, has GOT to be better than last haha.

and to end this...TRL had a finale and i happened to catch the backstreet boys singing their song " i want it that way"   and i'm goin to go ahead and say, that it was absolutely amazing.  haha. it brought me waaaay back.  aj was STILL hot, but now i think the others in the group are good looking as well.  and on that note..

xoxo

wow.

so i was reading tims blog -pop culture for the cultured- and i learned that papa johns has a facebook profile that give you a free medium pizza with an online order if you are friends with them. AND now you can order a pizza from your tivo! that blows my mind lol.

well my job interview was rescheduled to wed.

last night i went to dinner at a place i have never been before...le tub? it was probably the best burger i have ever had. and the setup of the place was sooooo cool. it was really a different, i odn't think i have been to place like that before. i think i will suggest it to others next time there is a discussion of "where to eat?" lol.

Yesterday, i had made plans with mike but cancelled. my buddy from leadership wanted to quit, and i dont even think we have gotten started yet. i am not a quitter. and if this whole thing is a game...IM IN IT TO WIN IT =)

i am goin to call mike and to get up with him today.
i need to go to wachovia or call them and figure out my account situation lol.

there are a ton of things i think i need to do.
i should be giving 100%, 100% of the time. we shall see!!



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just another manic monday..wooooah

hey hey!
so its like 8am and im wide awake from having my talk with alina this morning.

i have a jooob interview today, and i'm not even nervous, i just have to figure out what i'm going to wear.

i wanted to say that this past weekend was eye opening for me. i went to a shop to earn seminar and it was pretty much amazing. it had me laughing and crying. and afterwards, i think i really do want to go green. omg, there are so many products out there that i just never ever knew of. and i will NEVER look at water the same way lol. there were soo many business people there, like its definately growing. they gave away thousands of dollars, and a car. i didn't win any, that would have been nice though lol. when they went to give away the car, they had to call 3 NAMES because the people werent there. you had to be present. lol. out of control.

i had a great conversation with bronze last nite. i really do miss him. haha. my sunday nights will never be the same.

and saturday night, i went out with ashley and megan!! megan moved down here and i havent seen her in almost 2 years. AND we had so much fun downtown. except fsu lost their game!!! HOMECOMING! WE LOST HOMECOMING! and that is out of control. lol.

well i have a big week ahead of me. my sister is coming into town and we are actually going to get to spend thanksgiving together. she is doing the seminars that my mom and i did, and whitneys best friend elizabeth did it to. so now she gets to go! =)

sooo

I GOT A CALL BACK FOR ANOTHER INTERVIEW ON MONDAY!!! was there any doubt?? HELL NO! LOL   i got this AND what! haha

and this weekend, i get to go to a shop to earn seminar this weekend.  i plan on getting two people to sign up and if i do. on the 21st i will be getting a 600 dollar check and NOTHING wrong with a little extra money.  

I intend on enrolling two people! it will happen.  =)   

im sitting next to my mom outside, having a white russian. yum. what an old school drink haha.  

alright im off just wanted to update.

OH ash said that megan moved down here and we are suppose to go out saturday night. im excited about it. hopefully i can get out of the shop to earn seminar early! 

i stand for love and connection..

yesterday was a pretty long day for me. i am so broke, that i am desperately looking for a job. at this point i just need cash flow..(i need it in my life, im talking bank roll..my money my money) lol  

i got to do prep calls last nite, and out of my pile of people to call, only one person answered.  I got to have an amazing conversation with him about his dreams and vision for his life.  I learned that when i was open with him, he became open with me.  

i am committed in my life for everyone i know to see their vision. I get that if i want to have a world that is full of acceptance and unconditional love, than my love can't be conditional.   

i want to keep updating about my journey in LP cause i think it would be nice to look back and see where i was and who i will be.  i'm going to stop being a "human being" and become a "human doer" hahah aida said that to me yesterday, and i liked it.

i went for a 30 minute walk this morning, which was what i declared on my plan to do.  I am suppose to hear back from the lady today about the job interview that i had went to on monday.  I really do want this job. 

i also plan on calling another one of my team members, mike, today and try to have a clearing with him.  we had gotten into an arguement, and i choose from my small side to not even bother to forgive him or give him another chance. i know that in order for me to change, the way i go about things needs to change. so i am going to call him today and clear that up.  

If you see me write the name Alina, she is my coach.  I talk to her daily so her name is probably going to show up on here once or twice.   Alina dedicated a song to us this morning..

"where is the love?" by black eyed peas

i like that song, i like the lyrics!

here they are.

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

hola =)

Hey Hey!

SO this is my first blog on the blog.spot website. i used to keep one on livejournal but i definitely have not wrote on that thing in like a year haha. I figure I should start keeping a journal and update because i have had some major life changing decisions coming up in my life.

To start- i moved from tally and i miss it like crazy. I decided to move to Miami with Nicole and i'm excited about that. I think a little change and the unexpected is needed. I never had the desire to be in Miami, but why not? So i am going to give it a try.

I started doing these seminars called summit education, and they have had such a positive effect on my life. It is a real eye opening experience. I'm in the leadership part right now, and my group is up to some big things. I'm excited for it.

So writing a blog seems to be "the thing to do" right now haha. my friend tim has a good one..its called Pop Culture for the Cultured - you should def check it out, you won't be let down!! popcultureforthecultured.blogspot and i saw that my friend jason had one today that he started and then staci has one. and i said HEY i think i will give blogging another go around.
My blog isn't going to be about anything in particular. just thoughts.

I'm watching the Country Music Awards as i write..and i just want to throw out there that i love taylor swift. haha. i hear nothing but good things about her new album.

Has anyone seen Desperate Housewives of Atlanta....and Kim says..."its as easy as spelling cat..K-A-T" i'm thinking she is wishing that didn't air on national tv. hahahahah it cracked me up. i laughed so hard, because she was serious AND NO ONE CORRECTED HER hahahaha

well i'm off!